I was wrong

I stumbled upon a photographer's blog last week that shook me. 

I cried huge tears. 

My heart ached. Big.

I put my head down on my desk and cried more. 

I wished for Sara that there was a rewind button....

It was a typical Saturday morning.

Sara ran a bath for the 2 littlest ones.

It was only a few inches.

She peeked out of the bathroom to check on one of her other children, who had been sick. He said he was cold and wanted some pajamas. So she went to quickly grab him some pajamas.

She would tell you that was the biggest mistake of her life.

In just a few short minutes, her little boy Bronson had drowned. He wasn't breathing. He didn't have a pulse.  She performed CPR.  He arrived at the hospital dead on arrival.  Here's the entry that I read that had my head spinning.

And here is a photo of Bronson just 10 days ago:

I prayed to God for a miracle.  I prayed to God for mercy on this sweet family.  I prayed to God to keep my babies safe from harm; if I were Sara, I think I would crumble into a thousand tiny pieces.  

And then I didn't believe.

I prayed, but I checked Sara's blog daily, expecting to see an announcement for funeral arrangements.

I was wrong.

Me, of little faith, had her eyes opened...

You can read more about Bronson here. 

And in the words of Sara...

"Hug your babies a little tighter...

Give your children a little extra squeeze....

Be a little more patient and diligent

and a little less distracted

by the things that will wait until later.

Embrace the things that matter most."

Thank you Sara.  And thank you Bronson.  For teaching me about faith.  And perseverance.  And about embracing the things that matter most.

Comments

[Sharon Epp]

Scott and I just read the blog. AMAZING STORY! We even watched the news broadcast on the story released today.

http://www.ksl.com/?nid=148&sid=9654005

I couldn't imagine what I would do, how I would react or how my brain and body could function together if any thing that tramatic ever happened to Mac or Lily.

[Betsy]

I'm a blubbery mess!!! PRAISE GOD RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thanks for sharing this story! There's SO MUCH we can learn from it!

[Jesy]

I came across your blog because of the awesome pictures you have taken of Ashleigh and her cute prego belly.....then kept reading....and reading....and now I'm in February reading about Bronson. Wow, thank you for sharing this post, I hadn't heard this story and I'm just amazed by the miracle.

[Christi Traster]

Jesy - isn't it a crazy awesome miracle? I was the same way when I read Bronson's Mom's blog. I just couldn't stop. I was a hot mess; crying for so many reasons - for Sara and for my own motherly guilt. It opened my eyes. Sometime you just need a reminder of how good you have it, you know? Phew. It's an amazing story.

Thanks for reading my blog - I'm humbled. :)

xo
Christi